Breakthrough #2

 I have many small breakthroughs but last night I had a major one. I dj at a bar in Kenosha wisconsin and this bar is the reason I started tools. Well not the main reason but it is where I hit rock bottom. 30 days ago I was djing amd had a few cocktails when this really drunk guy started talk mess to me. Normally I would just brush it off but this time I just lost it and had 3 bouncers hold me back from beating him to death. I couldn't calm down. I came home still pissed and drunk and had a complete break down and was having thoughts of killing myself. I passed out before I did. I herd about tools on the radio from Jason Ellis a dj on sirius 28 faction. It got him thru some pretty dark times so I thought I would give it a shot. Within 3 day I began to change. My attitude, anger, stress, and drinking and drug habbit stopped. I have been clean for 29 days now and I have never felt better. Back to the begining of this story, the guy that pushed me over the edge came back into the bar last night. He was drunk and acting like an ass and would not close his tab. When the bartender when to go close it he pushed her and the bouncer grabbed him to explain what was going on. He and a few of his friends began to bad mouth the bouncer and cause problems and a fight broke out. 30 days ago I would have been in the middle of it but I was trying to break it up. The tab got closed and we got the idiots out of the bar. As the bouncer went to leave they were waiting out side and the fight began again. Insted of me fighting I was trying to play peace maker. I did have to take a guy down for my own proctection but I didn't hit him I just held him down. any ways long story short I controled my temper and kept my cool thanks to tools.

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