The pic of my son Elijah balancing across the row of tires reminds me of what I have been struggling with ALL my life. BALANCE. Today on Day 30, that was a main idea of the topic, along with Effort and Results.
I knew if I had to summarize ALL my goals and issues I need to overcome into one thing, that would be it. THAT is WHY I named myself SYMMETRY on here. I want that for myself both INSIDE and OUT.
Symmetry is defined as a correct or beautiful proportion of parts; balance; harmony.
Evenness, orderly, regularity, uniformity, well balanced, proportional, equal, mirror like.
The ironic thing is that my other, personal email is herwhimsicalness. I like and choose to keep that part of me too, but in a balanced amount would be the preference.
Just like I have an equally very silly, playful, imaginative even childlike side as I do a very deep, insightful, spiritual and intellectual side and very serious. I have equally outgoing, people loving and quietly reflective, daydreaming luxuriates in my time alone sides. I have a side that people often tell me seems like I am angel that fell off a cloud into their life and then if someone purposely hurts an innocent person or makes prejudice, cruel statements against anyone, even if I dont know them due to race, religion, age, sex, lifestyle, etc.. I have to take DEEP breaths before I open my mouth and remind myself to consider the source or else my blood BOILS and I may lose my temper which does no one any good.
On the other hand... I have SO MUCH imbalance. I THINK MORE than I take action.
I love people but am often too self conscious about my own self to let them see me in public. I like who I am on the INSIDE but don't always self talk or treat myself like it and am always awed when people like me.
I either overwork or don't at all.
I will tend to put my whole heart and soul into everything and everyone I am focusing on at the moment. That MIGHT sound like a good thing and sometimes it IS. BUT.....
not when it throws my whole self or life off balance.
I often will work through the day and even the entire night and not sleep because I am on a creative roll.
OH oh then I am tired so then I keep falling asleep all day and get behind on what I needed to tend to THAT day and then I feel overwhelmed and behind.
Then instead of working to catch up I may use avoidance and procrastination behaviors so I don't have to face it until I MORE than HAVE to.
I help other people in the work I do and love all the time or rather show them how to help themselves but don't really take the time to do the same things for myself. WHY?
I feel like I have survived some of the most horrific things in my past and came out on top and that I have exceptional faith YET I am paralyzed with fear over things most people don't even give a second thought to.
I FIRMLY believe each of us has the answers and everything we need within and that I have STRONG intuition and a loud persistent inner voice yet I worry so much about what OTHER people think. WHY?
Just like Elijah in the pic... I need to Use the Law of Effort and Action and Accumulation in putting only one foot in front of the other and as I reach out ONE arm to others to encourage and show my genuine love and care for them... I need to remember to ALWAYS keep my other arm out as well as I learn to walk my balance beam so I can receive help and advice and perspective from OTHERS. I have always been better at giving than receiving but reaching out my hand for someone to hold it is HELPING me gain balance on BOTH sides.
THANK YOU TO EVERY SINGLE PERSON here who has stood at my side at one time or another to hold my hand and help steady me and keep me on track or to help me back up when I fell.
Whatever I accomplish in this Tools to life experience or improve in myself during it.. I KNOW it will be magnified many times over BECAUSE OF THE SUPPORTIVE FRIENDS I HAVE MADE AND AM STILL MAKING HERE.
Tags: help, balance, symmetry, fall, Give, receive, friends, Support, action, effort, accumulation