IVE GOT ALL THIS INFO IN MY BRAIN, I KNO A COUPLE OF THINGS...GOT SUM EXPERIENCE...SO WHY IS IT THAT I DONT TAKE ACTION N DO WOTS RITE FOR ME??? DAMN THE TRAP!!! ROUTINE...BAD HABBITS, ITS JUST EASYER TO DO WOT UVE BEEN DOIN FOR SO LONG...

STILL...HERE GOES ME AGAIN, IM PUTTIN THE PIECES TOGETHER, ILL GET THER I KNO IT FOR SURE, CUS I CANT SERIOUSLY B THAT DUMB...

LETS HAVE A GREAT LIFE!

IM FEELIN A BIT CONFUSED ABOUT MY LIFE N WOT I WANT RITE NOW. IT ALWAYS SEEMS I SPEND MORE TIME SURVIVING THAN LIVING!!!

I NEED TO TAKE SUM TIME OUT TO THINK THIS TRU. SUMTIMES I KNO EXACTLY WOT I WANT N HOW TO GET THERE...BUT THEN A QUESTION POPS UP, OR SUMTHING HAPPENS N DRAGS ME INTO DOUBTING EVERYTHING AROUND ME.

I HAVE A GOOD LIFE, WISH I HAD MORE FINACIAL POWER...WALK INTO A STORE N SHOP FOR WOT I WANT N LIKE INSTEAD OF WOT I NEED N IS CHEAPER...I KNO THAT SOUNDS SUPERFICIAL...BUT I WISH I HAD THAT POWER...TO CHOSE AS I WISH N NOT WORRY ABOUT MONEY.

MOST OF MY LIFE IS WORKIN TOWARDS SUMTHIN..WAITING N COLLECTING THE RESULTS. I NOW WISH I WOULDNT HAVE DONE SO MANY WRONG THINGS...IM ACTUALLY STILL PAYIN FOR MANY MISTAKES FINANCIALY. WHY R WE SO STUPID WHEN WE R YOUNG??!! Y DONT WE MESURE THINGS OUT....LOOK INTO THE FUTURE N PLAN FOR BETTER THINGS??!!!

I DONT WANNA SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE PAYIN FOR OLD MISTAKES...I NEED TO FIND A SOLUTION. I NEED TO GET MY PRIORITIES STRAIGHT...

 A TITLE TO A BLOG POST REMINDED ME OF WOT HAPPENED THIS MORNING. I DIDNT REALLY WANNA TALK ABOUT IT ON HERE, DUNNO Y, BUT HERE IT GOES.

MY HUSBAND IS NOT A MORNING PERSON, SO IF WE MAKE A LITTLE NOISE HE LL GET PISSED OFF N START ARGUING, VERBAL DIAREA!!!!!BAD ONE, SO N E WAY, I WOKE UP EARLY TO GET SUM CHORES DONE CUS LATER ON THE DAY WE LL HAVE SUMONE OVER TO CHECK OUR SINK, SO EXTRA CLEANING THE KITCHEN YESTERDAY.~

I DIDNT EVEN MAKE THAT MUCH NOISE, I DONT WAKE UP THE BABY, HOW THE HELL DO I WAKE THE HUBBY UP!!???N GET HIM INTO A BAD MOOD???!!!

WOT PISSES ME OFF IS THAT I TRY TO GET THINGS DONE, N SUMTIMES I HAVE TO GET UP EARLY EVEN B4 THE SUN DOES...TO GET A HEAD START, N HES THE ONE WHO GETS PISSED---LAYIN IN HIS WARM BED...N IM UP N ABOUT!!!

SUMTIMES I JUST FEEL LIKE HE DOESNT RESPECT ME AT ALL...N WOT I DO FOR US TO SURVIVE, FROM THE EVERYDAY CHORES...TO THE HARDEST SACRIFICE. I DO IT, N DONT COMPLAIN, SO WHY DOES HE HAVE TO B SUCH A BITCH SUMTIMES!!!!!!

SUMTIMES I FEEL LIKE IVE GOT 2 BABY BOYS N NOT ONE. N SO WE HAVENT SPOKEN TO EACH OTHER ALL DAY, WE HAVE THE SAME WORK PLACE, STILL WE MANAGED NOT TO TRADE ONE WORD. IM OFFENDED, I DUNNO WOT THE HELL HE S NOT TALKIN TO ME!!!

I SUPOSE SUMTIMES ITS BETTER TO KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT, OR ILL GET VERBAL DIAREA!!!SO I GUESS THE DAY WASNT A TOTAL WASTE...I EXCERCISED SELF CONTROL. HOW I WISHED TO YELL AT HIM!!! BUT ITS ALL UNDER CONTROL NOW...

SORRY TO RAMBLE ON. I DO FEEL BETTER. N PRACTICED TOOLS WITHOUT EVEN KNOWING IT.

HAVE A GOOD ONE EVERYONE!

THAT THE BITCH ABOUT BAD STUFF THAT HAPPENS, WE WISH WE COULD JUST FORGET IT. BUT WHEN WE LEAST EXPECT IT, IT CREEPS UP. MEMORIES...GOOD N BAD THE LIFE MARKING ONES WILL B WITH US FOREVER, BUT ITS OUR DECISION ON WOT TO DO WITH THEM, LET THEM JUST B WOT THEY R, MEMORIES...OR LET THEM TAKE OVER N BE OUR FEAR N OBSTICLES...

THROUGHOUT OUR LIVES WE WILL MAKE MANY CHOICES TO CHANGE, SUMTIMES WE LL FAIL, OTHERS WE WILL SUCCEED, BUT FOREVER WE WILL WANT TO CHANGE SUMTHING. LETS MAKE IT A GOOD DECISION, A GOOD CHANGE.

STRENGTH N INSIGHT TO ME N TO U, LETS B STRONG, N SUPORT EACH OTHER, EVEN IF IT MEANS A HARSH WORD OF TRUTH.

HAVE A GREAT ONE!!!

TRIED SUPER HARD TO CONTROL MY TONGUE YESTERDAY, WHY IS IT SO HARD TO DO WOT IVE DONE BEFORE SO WELL!!??? I WAS ON THE RITE TRACK BUT LET MYSELF ASTRAY WITH THE PROBLEMS THAT CAME UP...

STILL EVERY DAY THERS A LESSON TO LEARN, AND EVENTS IN OUR LIVES R TO PUT US TO THE TEST. ILL STUDY HARD SO I CAN PASS THE NEXT TIME AN OBSTICLE COME.

STILL IM NOT GONNA GIVE UP...TODAY I WOKE UP FEELIN A BIT TIRED...GUESS I DIDNT SLEEP WELL...HAD SUM CHORES TO DO...THEN I DID A SHORT SERIES OF EXCERCISES...ALTHOU I DIDNT HAVE MUCH TIME LEFT, I PREFERED TO DO SUMTHIN THAN NOTHING SO I WONT BREAK THE HABBIT.

IM FEELIN UP TO THE DAY NOW...GOT A LOTTA WORK TO GET DONE, SO THATS ALWAYS GOT ME IN A SPEEDY MOOD.

A GREAT DAY TO EVERYONE, N WATCH OUT FOR THE SPEED BUMPS!!!!

THATS TO ALL URE ADVICE..IM TAKIN EACH PIECE INTO CONSIDERATION..

YESTERDAY I HAD A BUSY EVENING, GOT CAUGHT UP WITH CHORE N WORK, N I COULDNT LEV EVERYTHIN FOR TODAY. DIDNT SPEND MUCH TIME WITH THE BABY, WHICH I MISSED..THATS ONE GOOD HABIT IVE CREATED..PRIORITIZING SPENDIN TIME WITH MY SON WAS THE BEST THING IVE DECIDED.

WE UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER NMORE..I UNDERSTAND HIM MORE..LOL...N WE GET ALONG JUST FINE...WE HAVE FUN N GROW TOGETHER. SUMTIMES ITS HIM WHO MAKES ME TAKE A BREAK N HAVE SUM HUGGING TIME.

IM PROUD OF THIS DECISION, HE SEEMS TO B HAPPIER NOW...CALMER, AND MORE IN TUNE WITH US. INSTEAD OF BEING FRUSTRATED, HE S CREATIVE N PRODUCTIVE, HES GROWIN N LEARNIN JUST FINE.

SO ILL HAVE TOOLS TO THANK...FOR GIVING ME THE TOOLS FOR BEING A GOOD MOM.

SO TODAY WAS DAY2 OF EXCERCISIN...IM STARTIN MY DAY OFF REALLY WELL...HAD SUM FRUIT, N WENT OFF TO WORK.

IVE GOTTEN SUM IDEAS AS TO PURSUEDING MY HUSBAND TO EXCERCISE...I KNO NAGING IS NOT THE WAY...BUT SUMTIMES I JUST GET SO ANGRY...I KNO I SHOULDNT, AFTER ALL I TO KNO WOT IM SUPPOSED TO B DOIN FOR A BETTER LIFE N SUMTIMES I DONT TAKE ACTION.

THANX AGAIN FOR UR ADVICE...U GUYS R GREAT!!

WHY DONT I LISTEN TO MYSELF??!!!AM I THAT STUPID!!!I KNO WOT IM SUPPOSED TO DO OR NOT, STILL I DO WOTS WRONG!!!

THE WEEKEND IN GENERAL WAS GOOD, BUT ON SUNDAY I LOST MY GRIP. MY HUSBAND CAN B SO COLD SUMTIMES....HES NOT THE SENSITIVE, I GOT FEELINGS TYPE. HES ACTUALLY PRETTY HARSH SUMTIMES...HES NO CAVE MAN, BUT I JUST WISH HE WAS A BIT MORE SENSITIVE, SHARE THINGS WITH ME.

IVE BEEN TRYIN TO LEAD HIM INTO EXCERCISING...N FAILED HORRIBLY. THATS WHERE OUR ARGUMENT BEGAN...HES NOT EVEN TRYIN TO CHANGE HIS HABITS...I GIVE HIM IDEAS N OFFER TO HELP N STILL HE JUST WONT DO IT!!!

I WORRY SO MUCH FOR HIS HEALTH...HES GOT A HERNIA IN HIS SPINE...HES SUPPOSED TO EXCERCISE BUT HE DOESNT...HES SUPPOSED TO QUIT SMOKIN BUT HE WONT...IM RUNNING OUTTA IDEAS. ITS SO STUPID TO THINK THAT OUR BODIES WILL HANG ON WITHOUT TAKIN GOOD CARE FOR LONG. WHY WONT HE REALIZE HES NOT GONNA B 25 FOREVER??!!

IM DESPERATE!!!I KNO I CAN B SUFOCATING SUMTIMES...BUT IM JUST TRYIN TO GET HIM MOTIVATED...INSTEAD IT SEEMS LIKE IVE PUSHED HIM FURTHER AWAY.

AFTER THAT THE REST OF THE AFTERNOON WAS A RECK...I WAS TOTALLY BAK TO MY OLD BAD ATTITUDE...ARGUING N ANSWERIN BAK...PICKIN ON THE NERVE....IM SO ASHAMED!!!

SUM STEPS R EASYER THAN OTHERS...BUT STILL...CHANGING OUR WAYS IS HARD. THER WILL B UPS N DOWNS...BUT I AM GETTING TO WHERE I WANT TO!!!

ITS SO EASY TO GET DEMOTIVATED...THEN TO GET BAK ON TRAK IS KINDA HARD...BUT IM GONNA DO IT, AND ILL USE A TRICK I PICKED UP ON HERE...ILL LOOK FORWARD TO SUMTHIN EACH DAY.

ITS NOT LIKE IM DEPRESSED OR N E THING...ITS JUST THAT WE GOT SO MUCH TO DO N WORRY ABOUT THAT SUMTIMES WE FORGET TO SIMPLY HAVE FUN...I TRY NOT TO WORRY, FOR MOST OF THE TIME IM THE POSITIVE ONE...SAYIN EVERYTHIN WILL B JUST FINE N WE LL GET TRU IT. BUT IM HUMAN, N THE DAY COMES WHEN IM NOT THE ONE SAYIN THOSE THINGS...

BUT IM GETTIN BAK ON TRAK AND ILL GET EXCITED ABOUT TOOLS N LOOK FORWARD TO EACH DAY.

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!!