Guess what !?

Today is my one month of tools!!!!

I'm very excited and in positive spirits today, even though my day could have been a bit better --- but! Its nice to be home and instead of feeling sad after a GREAT day, I feel GREAT after a medeoker (?) day! Weird but hey I'll take it!

I liked todays ideas about taking the time... to notice. This time of year it can be hard to find beauty in my neck of the woods bc its GROSS out! dirty brown gross snow piles everywhere due to the snow plows/street scrapers. HOWEVER I am lucky enough to have a dog that I need to get out so every weekend we make sure to go to awesome parks in the city where u feel like ur so far from the city.... by the river in forested areas where appriciating the beauty is unavoidable! I like those times :) and I'm GRATEFUL to my dog for that otherwise I'm sure I would have no idea that this city offers the longest accessable river vally (in a city) in north america. Seriously its true!!

Also I am GRATEFUL bc as of late, I have been fortunate enough to have a few ppl send me friend requests, even tho I've never really "met" them on tools yet.... it gives me such a positive boost that I MUST be doing something right even tho sometimes I feel shitty and complain. So THANKS EVERYONE for that!! I really have to say again --- to everyone who is new BLOG! it really helps to feel your sence of community and support here. It helps to bring you back, feeling like ppl care what you think, and how you are, and what you have to say. I LOVE LOVE LOVE how creative...n/m Bevlin, as a few of us have come to know him... has graduated and is STILL HERE cheering us all on. I have noticed ppl I"m friends with who blog also CHEER the blogging point. If you don't want to fine, no pressure and your NOT less of a TOOLer for not doing it, but I think those of us who rant here can atest to the fact that it helps!!! To be honest me more than you, probably, but if it strikes a "me too!" chord with anyone else and I get a comment about it..... GOOD LORD! does that ever help me even more!!!

Example, my friend just started tools and mentioned how he hasn't blogged yet and I highly encouraged it for the above reasons, turnes out he FINALLY blogged, only a few sentinces, and got the most cheers for the day :) ----> like 15 or so which  is a lot!I"m so proud of him and if he saw it, I"m sure he felt so pround of himself too --- not to mention how good YOU ALL made him feel, I'm sure you'll never know.

BUT the point is we all make each other feel good at one point or another I"m sure

Do you know I usually dont even turn on my tv until 7/8 now that I'm on tools? I come home, clean kitchen if I need to(to help make me feel better), dishes or whatev, take dog out, get on tools, make dinner --- listening to music :) BLOG check out others blogs/questions/profiles/whatev and then finally relax to the PVR after a WAY more productive day then my old school way of tv, tv, tv, guess I'll eat, forget the dishes I'm tired, smoke a doobie go to bed wake up tired to a messy house.

God I miss those days.... YA RIGHT mother goose!!! forget that shit! My sad depressing days are the days of old - IF I fall into that trap again I feel shitty. BIG SURPRISE

So anyways. I bought myself a harmonica yesterday. It was one of the things from last years goals I missed. Plus I think its good for me and makes ME feel good. And this week I'll buy some flowers bc they make me smile. I don't expect them too, but I have a clear vision of smiling when I finally do find the ones I like :) I also smile thinking I have friends out there who are reading this to check up on me :) Thanks guys - you know who u are!!! SMILES for u guys and whats up and awesome with you!!! Mama Tee's been a readin and things 'r a-lookin tasty!!

yum yum!!

(I have no idea what that means but I laughed as I wrote it so roll with the beats okay?!)

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