so my names trista. im 18 years old and i know your probably thinking oh how much stress can she have at a young age? well think again.

i dont really know where to start this all because im not sure what im even thinking myself. : )

so i guess first of all ill start with my family. i have a very small close but loving family. lately it seems like we are all falling apart. my grandfather, the only father figure ive ever had in my life got really sick. he smoked 4 packs a day and was an alcoholic. he had open heart surgery and i swore up and down that i would quit smoking and havnt been succesful yet. my grandfather has been giving me a hard time about how he wants to smoke and blah blah.

i recently got into a car accident and totaled my car. i go to school 45 minutes away mon wed and fri and work tues thurs & sat about 10 miles away. so now i am relying on my boyfriend,mother,and friends. i feel like im getting punished and my privledges are being taken away. i dont like relying on people and i am a very independent person so this sucks.

my boyfriend just got his own apartment and now all i can worry about is his money and is he paying his bills? does he have enough money? can he afford to take time off to take a mini vacation to new hampshire for a weekend?

the economy is another stressful situation -- just like everyone elses main worry right about now. im worry about being laid off and not having money to pay all of my bills.

im trying to quit smoking and havnt been able to say i conquored that obstacle yet.

thats about my life right about now. wanna talk? let me know

my mother got pregnant at 17 and had me at 18. my father left her before she even had me and put her thru hell. she worked 3 jobs at once just to try o support me. its always been just me and my mom and shes my best friend. shes not like those best friend moms that let me run wild. its not like that. shes the most caring and loving person, hands down that i have ever met. i was never showed a father. my mom always had boyfriend that took her for granted and never appriciated her so i dont like that.