Well, it's day seven and my home page still is locked down on day four. But that's ok. Because I have begun removing some of those bricks in the wall and the light is starting to shine through.
I've begun to use a new montra to try to break my procrastination. NOW! Everytime I find myself back sliding I say NOW to remind myself to live in the present. And I am making some progress in that directon.
As for smoking, well I have cut down considerably, but what I find most difficult is the fact that when I don't smoke I become enraged over the smallest of things to and intollerable point even for my loyal pets.
I'm working on that too. And when I see that anger fling to the surface, I tell myself it's the addiction trying to lure me into having a cigarette to calm down, and take some deep breaths instead. Its still a one minute at a time process like it is with any addiction.
And it lets me know that I still have work to do to make my commitment to not smoking stronger than the urges to do so.