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Wed, Dec 16 06:41 AM

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My mind is very alive. In fact it runs at hyper speed. Never shutting off. And when I write I feel most alive.

Yet the disconnect with my body other than feeling pain, which is the nagging reminder to me that I am still alive there, still keeps me frozen in time.

I can't escape the feeling that I have driven myself back to the same desparate place that I spent most of my childhood.

But why do I keep banishing myself to that place?

Am I searching for something I lost a long time ago? Or am I looking for the wires that got disconnected way back then so that I can reconnect mind and body.

I know it is in part conditioning, but I can't help but think that I need to find that primal

survival tool that is still missing.

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Jmarquard Jmarquard:

Today is not yesterday nor tomorrow.

I read both your posts this morning and wanted to encourage you to make a decision to let go of the past and embrace the present.  Dont concern yourself with things that have happened, or the things that will happen.  Those thoughts will rob you of the gift of now.

 

Sending peaceful thoughts your way.