My story could probably be summed up by saying that I should be the poster child for underachievers.
Seriously, it's true.
Spiraling major depressions and negative messages from my past weigh me down like and anchor and have kept me from accomplishing anything.
And I've pushed myself into a survival subsistence that no human should live in.
All that I can see clearly, but most of all I know that I can't change all this alone.
Trying to combat all the negatives with just my own voice obviously hasn't worked. And right now the support of others is what I need to begin turning things around.
I am at my lowest point, and it's true that that is what it takes sometimes to give your self the boot in the butt you need, to move in another direction.
Time is running out for me, and I fear that I will not be able to turn enough things around quick enough to physically survive.
Yuk!!! This is not one I want to write. But somehow in writing it I feel like I will be answering some of my own questions about what is really holding me down. Hold on to your hat this will probably be a long one!
Writing,creating,teaching,working with animals,photography, there is never just one thing for me.
My favorite wild animal is:
Why (describe as much as possible):
The beaver creates his own world, makes it just how he wants it to be.
My favorite domestic animal is (if you choose dog be specific with breed etc):
My English Pointers
Graceful, elegant, born with a sense of who they are and what they are supposed to do. Shy and Loyal.
A famous Chef will prepare anything you want. What do you order:
Prime rib, potatoes augratin, and asparagus.
Suculent meat, full of flavor yet tender. Potatoes augratin, well anything with cream and cheese soothes the soul. Asparagus, if tender a treat of a green.
Five people either dead or alive you would have at your fantasy dinner party::
Jesus,Ghandi,the Pope,Robert Frost and TS Elliot
Jesus because I would be interested in what he had to say about things rather than some various religions take on his thoughts. Ghandi because his approach seemed to me to be divinely inspired. The Pope because I see him as more of a political figure and would be on the edge of my seat to hear Jesus, Ghandi and he discussing the world today. Robert Frost and TS Elliot would bring in human aspects to the conversation that would make the evening very thought provoking.
If a pilot would fly you anywhere you want, you would go to:
I'd stay where I am.
My perfect slice of pizza is:
A gooey slice of Real New York Pizza.
You are at a bar. You order this drink:
Bourbon and Coke
You are at a coffee shop. What coffee or tea do you order:
Sorry, don't drink coffee
If a genie could grant you three wishes they would be (separate by commas):
Financial Security, Good Friends, the energy to live my dreams
You are going on a long road trip and you can only bring three CD's. Which ones do you bring
(separate by commas):
If I could do anything for my neighborhood today, it would be:
Be in a position to employ community members.
A sunset I remember:
One when the sun was brite Red!
Any character I could be from a movie, TV show or book would be:
Ug! No answer there
To busy trying to figure out how to be me as it is.