I am currently on a forced vacation.  Sounds like heaven, but truth to be told it isn't.  Especially when you have no cash and the bills from a 4 yr college will start rolling in soon.  Sigh.  (And I cannot even get a job as a part time sales associate at the local mall!)

So I am going to take the time right now and focus on everything I wanted to learn but I put aside in the goal of getting a "formal education" for that "real -world job".

Wish me luck.

I am the eldest daughter and always felt like I had to grow up harder and faster to help my mother raise my younger brother.  So when I joined the military after graduating highschool, I had my dream job as an EMT in a search and rescue unit.  Saddly to say, I was lacking in the normal social skills needed to avoid some really big mistakes.  Well- end the end- I paid the price.

I then desided to go to college, really I always saw myself in academia, but there was so many things I wanted to learn, but at the age of 24, I felt like I had wasted so much time and that I needed to rush to the finish line and get a real job and keap up with my peers.  So I worked 2-3 jobs just to make ends meat while going to full time university.  To make a mockery of my actual IQ., that was one of the stupidest things I have done to date.  Some things cannot be run like a marathon.  But I did manage to get a B.A. is Sociology and minors in psychology and anthropology with two other certs.  I even presented my research paper at a scological conferance. 

Now I have just graduated, wondering am I really good enough to get start a career.  So I am applying for jobs.   

I am enployed.  Making good money (not millions, but I have become fincianally responsible enough and have invested wisely)  The stress of being able to pay my bills has melted away. 

With that biggest worry tucked far away, I have also learned to be patient with myself and my self critizism is a rare habit indead.  I have become proficiant in my favorite languages.  Other dramatic changes are evident too; such as I am back to my top psycial codition-and enjoying my daily run.  I am confident enough to see myself as the mature woman I am.  I have worked on my writting and am satified with it.  I have traveled around the world and back-packed both thru Eorupe and Asia.  No Fears.