Starting to feel better today. I talk to the ex and he is coming by to get his stuff in the morning. He was very cold and matter of fact while we talked, which was good for me becuase I know not to feel sorry for him, he is just fine without me and I can stay focused on myself, instead of considering his feelings and making changes based off from how it will affect him. Sister came by, and I was working on this site, she was happy to see I wasn't checking up on him or sad about him today. felt good to have her over for a little while, to have a freind stop by and know someone cares. he will be here tommrow to get some of his stuff at 11:00 am not sure if I should leave while he is here, or stay to make sure he doesn't take the kitchen sink. sending my daughter to a aunts house so she doesn't have to be here during all of it, becuase I dont know what is going to happen, what feelings may come up or if anyone may yell at some point. At least I'm thinking clear enough to think about how it will affect her. I know I should leave tommorrow, I think that would be best, and I think me wanting to stay, is that small hope that I can't get rid of even when I don't want to stay in the relationship.